RT.... This poem comes straight from the heart and not just from the bottom. I couldn't even tell you where the bottom is anymore for it's been broken far too many times. I'm usually not one to be down in the dumps but I can't help but feel like I've been dumped by the people I thought I could trust.
RT... I've never come to realization of how fake people could be. I'm not talking plastic or rubber...I'm talking blasé expressions and facade personalities. I'm talking Fugazi emotions, pretending and contradicting. Why?
RT... I am sick and tired of trying to please everyone because not everyone can be pleased..and I realize that now.. I wish I saw this coming earlier
RT... I appreciate those friends that let me be me.. I appreciate you being non judgmental.. I appreciate the late nights and the deep convo. True MVPs
RT... The amount of real people I know I can count on both hands.. Now don't take offense to that its only because I personally don't know you.
RT... I'm done saying real talk to make what I'm saying real damn it. I'm a pissed off black man that just wants to live his life... P.s. This isn't a race thing I promise.. Saying black just gave it a stronger meaning.
RT... I couldn't care less of what they think of me, what he thinks, what she thinks, what you think.. All I know is I've always been real and I don't plan on stopping now.
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
Sunday, May 15, 2016
I Remember When
I remember when the trees would dance
and the birds would sing
and all the old folks were just doin their thing
yeah life was rough but the times were good
reminiscin all the good vibes about the hood
like i know i should, man i miss my fam
momma's corn, mashed potatoes, and honey glazed ham
and lets not forget grams, she was the real OG
never was a smart alec she'd smack the sense outta me
im talkin til i saw pee, runnin down my pants
lookin like a fool doin the potty dance
and my uncle, you see
was makin good money
but could never help us out cause he was so stingy
with my clothes dingy
I grew up in the real struggle
steady on my grind tryin to find my hustle
everyday was difficult, a fight, a real tussle
would've never made it out without my mental muscle
I remember conning the cons and juking the junkies
they were sticky and icky and i didn't want the to touch me
cause thats when things got funky, i mean things got ugly
I mean uglier than prisoners playin a game of rugby
I got violent when needed, yo this junkie proceeded
crossed his face with a rake, it probably felt like he got cleated
when im angry im meaner
you know hulk, well im greener
didnt take haste to the case cause its only a misdemeanor
never broke any femurs, but ive broken some noses
and to all my homies ive given too many black roses
im debating on posting, this is a piece of the truth
about the strife and destruction that i went through in my youth
will i get through it? yeah! but it may take me a while
just know i stay optimistic and take on life with a smile
and the birds would sing
and all the old folks were just doin their thing
yeah life was rough but the times were good
reminiscin all the good vibes about the hood
like i know i should, man i miss my fam
momma's corn, mashed potatoes, and honey glazed ham
and lets not forget grams, she was the real OG
never was a smart alec she'd smack the sense outta me
im talkin til i saw pee, runnin down my pants
lookin like a fool doin the potty dance
and my uncle, you see
was makin good money
but could never help us out cause he was so stingy
with my clothes dingy
I grew up in the real struggle
steady on my grind tryin to find my hustle
everyday was difficult, a fight, a real tussle
would've never made it out without my mental muscle
I remember conning the cons and juking the junkies
they were sticky and icky and i didn't want the to touch me
cause thats when things got funky, i mean things got ugly
I mean uglier than prisoners playin a game of rugby
I got violent when needed, yo this junkie proceeded
crossed his face with a rake, it probably felt like he got cleated
when im angry im meaner
you know hulk, well im greener
didnt take haste to the case cause its only a misdemeanor
never broke any femurs, but ive broken some noses
and to all my homies ive given too many black roses
im debating on posting, this is a piece of the truth
about the strife and destruction that i went through in my youth
will i get through it? yeah! but it may take me a while
just know i stay optimistic and take on life with a smile
Sunday, May 8, 2016
Blue Ticket (shake)
Cause the players gonna play (x5)
And the haters gonna hate (x5)
Baby, im just gonna shake (x5)
Shake it off (x2)
and you should too! Shake what yo mama gave ya, but lets not confuse this with twerking
Shake your groove thang (x2)
Baby! Show them how you do it now.
Cause im just gonna shake, shake,shake.
And the haters gonna hate (x5)
Baby, im just gonna shake (x5)
Shake it off (x2)
and you should too! Shake what yo mama gave ya, but lets not confuse this with twerking
Shake your groove thang (x2)
Baby! Show them how you do it now.
Cause im just gonna shake, shake,shake.
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
what my heart is going threw
Before I tell you how my heart feels now I have to go back about a month ago,you see I was feeling lost because I was with someone that never made my heart skip a beat or jump for joy. But one day I got a message out of the blue and it made me feel something I never felt before, my heart was excited full of joy and a feeling I thought only existed in fairytales.
Later on the person that sent me a message wanted to meet at the gym, I was going threw some difficulties because I still with someone but my gut feeling was to go to the gym and so I went. then I saw the amazing person hat sent me a message I didn't know what to do because I felt something I never felt before. So I started to spend time with this person, and I my heart started to get more and more excited and I felt like this is something good,something new.
Then the other person I once thought I loved I realized I never loved them because the way I felt with the new person made my heart feel things it never felt before,so the other person I once loved left my life as I did theres. But now you see my heart is torn in two because half of me whats to be with this amazing person but half of me is scared because these feeling are different and new. I cant help think that me and this person would be great but my heart has been broken so many times before,I don't know if I can take another heart break.But I cant help falling for this person is the most scary thing I've ever fallen in love with.
Thursday, April 21, 2016
This is Real, This is Me
Okayyyy its reveal time, It probably wont be super dope but then again if you knew the real me then you'd understand that I dont need comments and a popular blog to be dope. I can be dope by myself and if anyone wants to join me I welcome them with open arms. If you knew the real me you'd know that I didnt have a very fun childhood, I grew up with a drug lord coke dealing father who sold to his own family (what a guy!). I woke up every morning to my cousins, uncles, aunts, and grandparents sniffing and smoking basically any way their bodies would accept it just to get a high. Honestly tho who could blame them, I wouldnt want to remember all of the bullsh*t we suffered through but then again my mind was stronger than that. If you really knew me, you would understand that I do not let my past define me. We all have a story but lets be honest, would you have guessed that this is the way I was raised? I strive everyday to be optimistic, to smile, to encourage and to be someone's friend. Service is one of my love languages and I help in any way that I can. To all the LDS folks out there, I hope you dont have a problem with LGBT because if you knew the real me you'd know that I have a bisexual mother who is married to another woman and has been for 3 years now. If you really knew me you'd know that I have a love for all sports but basketball is my #1 lady. I love the feeling of shifting ankles as i run down the court and dishing it out to a teammate for that oh so sexy assist, watching the ball fly through the air and diving straight in the net while it makes that beautiful beautiful swishing noise. I wish marrying basketball were legal. lol jk but not really. If you knew me you'd know that in being here i miss my family everyday. It kills me not to wake up and see them but i am grateful for the family that I live with now. I've only been here for approximately seven months and ive already gone through some major trials with them and for those of you who know me you know what i mean. Im a joy to be around, a dread head, and genuinely love people. Oh and i love to dance! What up guys, my name is Shaquell Williams and this is me.
Sunday, April 17, 2016
How to get a girl's phone #
So sophomore year I got pantsed in the cafeteria in from of the whole school and this is how the story goes...
I woke up that morning and it was one of those days, you know the days where you didnt wanna get outta bed so you ended up waking up late and didnt have time to find and outfit or forgot to set one out the night before so you just throw on some gym clothes and go to school all flustered, yeah one of those days. Now before I continue on im gonna go ahead and throw out the fact that I wasnt always a ladies man. *Winks with a smile* Now im going throughout my day just the same as always and it came time for lunch, this is back when I would eat in the cafeteria because that southern cooking was BANGIN!! Now normally i'd go through the line, get my food, and go sit with my squad but i couldnt find squad. I came out of the serving area to the register, looked out over the sea of students,and scanned up and down back and forth trying to find my homies. Out of the blue some random dude came running out of the serving area and pulled my shorts to my ankles. Keep in mind they were basketball shorts and i was wearing dri-fit underwear, I gave all my secrets away that day if you know what i mean. I stood there with my food in my hands because best believe i wasnt droppin that as the crowd turned to me and starting roaring "OHHHH, how'd you let him get you man". This went on for the whole lunch period all the way into my next class. I got there late and everyone looked at me and starting snickering and hehe-ing. I went and sat in my desk trying to forget about lunch in all and then... this is when i became a ladies man... 3 random chicks that ive never talked to a day in my life walk up to me at the same time kiss me on my cheek and hand me a piece of torn paper. im thinking its gonna be a roast or something like that but surely enough it was their phone numbers lol!! I walked over to them and was like "why'd you give me your numbers" and they were like "we liked what we saw in there" and my final words to them were "oh you filthy harlots" and thats where this story ends.
I woke up that morning and it was one of those days, you know the days where you didnt wanna get outta bed so you ended up waking up late and didnt have time to find and outfit or forgot to set one out the night before so you just throw on some gym clothes and go to school all flustered, yeah one of those days. Now before I continue on im gonna go ahead and throw out the fact that I wasnt always a ladies man. *Winks with a smile* Now im going throughout my day just the same as always and it came time for lunch, this is back when I would eat in the cafeteria because that southern cooking was BANGIN!! Now normally i'd go through the line, get my food, and go sit with my squad but i couldnt find squad. I came out of the serving area to the register, looked out over the sea of students,and scanned up and down back and forth trying to find my homies. Out of the blue some random dude came running out of the serving area and pulled my shorts to my ankles. Keep in mind they were basketball shorts and i was wearing dri-fit underwear, I gave all my secrets away that day if you know what i mean. I stood there with my food in my hands because best believe i wasnt droppin that as the crowd turned to me and starting roaring "OHHHH, how'd you let him get you man". This went on for the whole lunch period all the way into my next class. I got there late and everyone looked at me and starting snickering and hehe-ing. I went and sat in my desk trying to forget about lunch in all and then... this is when i became a ladies man... 3 random chicks that ive never talked to a day in my life walk up to me at the same time kiss me on my cheek and hand me a piece of torn paper. im thinking its gonna be a roast or something like that but surely enough it was their phone numbers lol!! I walked over to them and was like "why'd you give me your numbers" and they were like "we liked what we saw in there" and my final words to them were "oh you filthy harlots" and thats where this story ends.
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